Saturday, August 28, 2010

It's all about me

Pondering 1 John 2:15-17

In verse 15 We are told not to love the world or the things in the world.  Verse 16 clears that up even further.  for all that is in the world - the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life - is not of the Father but is of the world.  Finally verse 17 - the world is passing away. 

I feel clearly that God is strongly dealing with me in the area of lusts of the world.  I would love to say that I have no real "lusts" but that would be a complete lie.  Most of us have heard that you can look in your checkbook register and see where your priorities lie.  Hmm yes - gas, groceries, electricity, education and so forth.  Yes it takes lots of gas to drive from our house to work each day - but we make zero effort to car pool.  We don't have the same work schedule - but I'm sure we could work something out IF we wanted to.  Groceries - that one is a killer.  We must be one of the most wasteful families I know when it comes to food.  We rarely eat left overs.  We often eat out.  The pantry stays full and the freezers (plural) are full and yet I seem to need to go the grocery store once or twice a week.  I remember the days when I made a menu and shopped for those specific foods.   Coincidentally, we were all much smaller in those days.  Those were the same days that exercise was free.  (aside from the pair of tennis shoes)  We didn't need a Gym membership or a living room full of exercise equipment.  We knew how to "beat the pavement".  There are so many areas of our lives that we could simplify and cut out waste. 

Other lusts are for my home.  I love my house.  It is more house than we physically need.  It needs some modifications but some of the things I want are simply because of coveting what others have.  No one in particular - but each time I see something that I like better than mine - I think that I may need to change things in my house.  Needs or wants?  How often do I ask myself that?  NEVER  That's the answer.  Then I find myself worrying - literally - about how I'm going to get those changes.  Changes that I don't need - but I want.  Where is the eternal significance in wanting to update my house?  Updates such as new insulated windows are far overdue.  They would have paid for themselves many times over since moving into this drafty old house.  Some things are just good common sense. 

I guess the loss of our last two parents has me really evaluating my life.  This life is passing away.  When I'm gone - what will be my legacy?  Worldly?  Materialistic?  My mom once said that she hoped when she died that people would be able to say nice things about her at her funeral.  She must have thought about that a lot in life because there were nice things said.  Her legacy is that of a prayer warrior.  She burned the midnight oil down on her knees in prayer (actually sitting in her glider rocker).  Or early morning's sitting at her dining room table  - Bible open and praying.  She loved to give - she gave to her church, her family, and countless veteran organizations that sent her some labels.  And pretty much any other organization that sent her some labels or a t-shirt or even a flag, oh yes tote bags, cards - yep you name it and she gave.  She felt guilty having more than enough and someone else not having enough.   What is enough for me and my family?  It's something we need to decide.  What more can we give?

God's Word says "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?" Matthew 6:25-27 NIV   His word is clear that we should not worry about what we are going to eat - He will provide.  This is where faith has to be an action word.  If we give more than then won't God provide for our needs?  He tells us that He will so if we are not obedient to His call then we are not showing faith. 

God has a promise for our doubts and fears when He asks us to step out on faith "So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." Matthew 6:34 New American Standard Bible  I am a worrier (is that a word?) by nature.  I always considered it just a control freak.  But part of needing to be in control comes from worrying about taking care of things.  And these things more often that not are things that God is trying to take care of but I get in the way. 

So - it is all about me - it's about me getting in God's way.  It's about me putting my focus on things that have no eternal significance.   It's about me - it's about time that I let go and let God.  It's time to put faith into action.  Heck I even worry about what blessings I've missed out on that I know I got in the way of - for crying out loud - when will I learn?????????

But I sure do love you guys!



ShirleyC said...

Great message that I'm sure a lot of us needed to hear.

Penny said...

Great post, Diane! I hope you and Mike are healing and really feeling God's presence right now. And your children, too.